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Name: Sara
Location: Columbia, South Carolina, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: the color pink, friends, music, inside jokes, taking pictures, looking at pictures, scrapbooking, make up, talking on the phone, piercings, tattoos, keeping intouch with friends, stickers, quotes, good times back stage, smiling, hoodies, publications, journalism, lyrics, hugs, getting flowers, my mom, candles,my brother's art work, cats, jolley-ranchers, purses, falling in love, cooking, saying hello to strangers, receiving the mail, South Carolina, coffee, flip-flops, and everything mentioned above
Expertise: sleeping, laughing, smiling
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  glittermepink05
MSN: glittermepink05@msn.com
Member Since:
12/21/2004
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| I'm home. I don't know if I've made the right decision. I don't know if I will know anytime soon, but I'm gonna be hopefull and see what happens. I'm off to find a job today and I have quite a bit of homework to do, but needless to say I still want to see people and have some fun- if that's possible. I'm here till August... Get ahold of me-- you know who you are. :) Sara | | |
| I'm truly trying to understand how two people can spend almot 2 and a half years together and suddenly one of them decides to call it quits. Not to mention, this person doesn't seem to have an answer as to why the relationship has to be over other than "time" is needed to "figure things out." I'm doing better than I was-- and I know that is because I'm distracted since I am with my family and on break, but I'm hoping the feeling of happieness and my attempting to move on will stick with me once my family is gone. I think I want things to work between us, but I guess I shouldn't want to be with someone who doesn't want me. But, I think she does want me (if we can work things out and get back to being happy)-- I really do. She says she went right from her first girlfriend to me-- and now she wants time to be single. I'm thinking-- I didn't force her into a relationship with me-- it itsn't my fault she feels she didn't get her "single time." I'll admit, I was a complete mess for about a week. I don't think I have ever cried so much in my entire life. I don't think I've ever literally felt like my heart was torn in 2. I know I've never been so hurt that I couldn't bring myself to eat for days at a time. I've never wanted to get in my car and just drive home so bad during my entire college career. I've never felt so betrayed or led-on in my whole life. But, I'm trying to make the best of this. I know I'm only 20 (21 ON MONDAY!) and I know that I have a lot of opportunities ahead of me and lots of people to meet. People tell me that if it is meant to be it is meant to be-- things will work out if they are supposed to, but I'm scared that things aren't meant to be (according to her). I know that my dating a woman has been mind blowing and confusing to so many people, even to me. I still can't explain it-- I fell in love with the person, not the person because she is female. And to be honest, if this is over for good I'm sure I'll start daing guys again. I'm initially attracted to guys-- but I can't promise that it isn't a possibility to fall for another woman- although if I had to choose a woman to be with-- well, I already did. I don't want to have it easy-- by that I mean I have been fighting for and advocating for gay rights-- I hate the pain, torture, and pain memebers of the LGBT community have to go through, it isn't fair and I'm willing to live with that and continue to fight. Even if I'm not in a homosexual relationship I will always fight for gay rights. I'm trying to move on-- in a sense that I'm looking forward to this summer where I can be home and hang out with people I miss and people who love me for me. I'm looking forwad to spending months with my family, esp. my mother. I'm looking forward to whatever may come my way. I's never wish for anyone to feel the way I have felt during this break up, not even my worst enemy. But, I'm gonna hang in there. This isn't the end of the world, no matter how much it feels like it is. It's juts a time for me to grow and figure out who I am. Sara | | |
| If you know me at all you probably know I'm a bit obsessed with American Idol; however, I'll admit to never having watched the show until season 4. Also, if you know me at all you probably know I'm a huge fan of Constantine Maroulis, who just so happened to be on season 4 of American Idol, yet that is not the reason I fell in love with him. Coincidentally, I saw Constantine (before I knew he was anybody) outside of a theater in Chicago, a theater I was waiting outside of to see RENT. Anywho, I told Michael how attractive I thought this rocker-ish guy was behind us and he dared me to go tell him, but needless to say, I didn't take the dare. Once the doors opened and the show started this rocker-ish guy I was googly eyes over outside was putting on an amazing performance as Roger in RENT. I was pretty amazed... and Michael just looked at me like, "you should have talked to him...". Now that I have gotten way off point-- I'll continue with my love for American Idol and share my feelings about tonight's show. Tonight featured the top 12 guys. Sadly, I made a list of each performer with their number, a star if I liked them, and characteristics of their performance I liked-- to keep them straight since I don't remember names yet. Okay-- here goes...
1.) David Hernandez- I have liked David from day one. He has amazing vocals and seems very comfortable performing. His performances so far have been flawless.
2.) Chikezie- I haven't really liked Chikezie much this season. He can sing, but not amazingly. He doesn't stand out to me and I wonder why he is in the top 24.
3.) David Cook- I've been intrigued by David since day one. I'm hoping a rocker-ish guy will one day win this competition and David's mohawk/ raspy voice/ grunge is working for me.
4.) Jason Yeager- Jason is another one I wonder about. We haven't seen too much of him on TV thus far, but what I saw tonight- "Moon River" was not impressive and as Simon would day was "forgettable."
5.) Robbie Carrico- Robbie is exactly that rocker-ish guy I want to win eventually. I've been amazingly impressed since day one and I hope he staying in the competition for quite sometime, if not become the next American Idol.
6.) David Archuleta- David has also impressed me since day one. He is only 17 and has amazing talent. I don't think tonight was his best performance and I think he needs to work on his confidence and presentation, but I think he will make it far.
7.) Danny Noriega- I like David's attitude and presence. I think he has a ton of fun on stage and knows he has skill. I think he will make it far because he can sing, he is entertaining, and he gives Simon attitude.
8.) Luke Menard- We haven't seen any of Luke until tonight. They showed a bit of his audition tonight, but that is all we had to compare him to. I had high hopes for Luke because he is technically my cousin by marriage-- haha-- and I've heard how amazing he is. My mother heard him sing at a cousin's funeral (his uncle) and she and others raved about him. I hope I get to see him again, but he was definitely not a favorite of mine.
9.) Colton Berry- Colton is one we didn't see too much of and I was pretty upset that he made it through over Kyle last episode. However, he did impress me tonight. He has a great voice and seems confident while having fun, but he is a bit theatrical.
10.) Garrett Haley- I hadn't seen any of Garrett until tonight and I wasn't impressed. I hate that I have nothing to compare tonight to to know whether or not it was just a bad night for him, but I wasn't pleased.
11.) Jason Castro- Again, Jason is one we haven't seen. First I have to commend him for playing guitar while singing tonight. His dreadlocks threw me a bit because he seems so shy and they didn't seem to fit his personality, but once he got to singing I completely fell in love with his performance. He is by far my favorite from tonight. He is a bit, as I wrote in my notes, Jack Johnson-ish--- Whom I love! So, no complaints!
12.) Michael Johns- I have without a doubt loved Michael from the beginning, between his voice, his looks, and his Australian accent he won me over. His Hollywood performance of Bohemian Rhapsody blew me away. I don't think tonight was his best performance, but he has amazing talent. I think he'll be around for a while and If he isn't I'll be surprised and sad.
Okay, I know I am officially a dork for taking the time to write my thoughts on these performers, but I felt the need. My prediction is that Jason Yeager will have the least amount of votes on Thursday. We'll have to wait and see...
And if you're lucky, I might just write another one of these tomorrow after the girls perform...
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| So, I thought having mono over break pretty much sucked- and it did, but I started to feel kinda crappy a couple of days ago, but I thought nothing of it. Rhonda convinced me to go to the doctor, and as it turns out once someone has had mono it can flare back up for up to a year... lucky me that is exactly what has happened. I'm now told I have to go to and from school and home for a while, thats it. I was supposed to go to a kids event with ETV for my internship this weekend, but I can't go now. I was looking forward to it... bummer.
Anyway, school is going alright. 18 hours with my internship 3 days a week. It is going okay so far. I have tons of homework that I'm already behind in and I have class twice a week from 7-9:30PM-- not too fond of that.
Sometimes I kick myself for even being here this semester. Not sure who all knows, but there is no point it hiding it... my mom isn't doing too well these days.She is, but she isn't. Cancer blows--- end of story. Anyway-- I wonder why I'm here when I could be spending her good days with her, but that isn't what she or my dad wants for me. They want me to keep on and live my life, but I have to admit... that isn't as easy as it sounds. I get to see them the beginning of March for a conference I got a paper accepted at that they are going to go to, plus my mom is going to come back to SC with me afterward since I'll be on break. I'm excited! But, I still hate that I'm not close enough to go home every weekend... oh well...
Also, I hate the idea that she may not be here to see me graduate, to see me go on to grad. school, to see me get my master's degree, to get married, to have children... AH morbid... but most likely true...
I guess I'll eventually come to terms with it. Until then I'll be talking to her 7 times a day, like I always have, and I'll try to get home more. I'll be home this summer for sure, with my baby even!
Alright... well. I hope everyone is doing well.
Love,
Sara
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